There are just certain things that make a body wonder. Two days ago, the tot’s pet fish passed. Some have already told me, it’s just a fish. It’s not like it was a cat or dog or something. The thing is, this was tot’s pet. He was responsible for the fish. He’d talk to it, feed it, change the water, read to it…and it was his. Poor kid was devastated. Still is, but who can blame him?
We put down my orange cat before Christmas and it was tough. Broke my heart because he was my baby. I still feel like a heel for putting him down, even though he was failing and wouldn’t have made it through the night. So I get why tot feels destroyed.
But the passings got me thinking. I’ve been down in the dumps since Tuesday when I had to tell the tot about his fish. Just…made me depressed. I gave myself Tuesday and yesterday to feel cruddy. I mean, you need time, right?
I made a decision last night. I can’t just be blah. I can’t. It’s not me. So, I’m choosing positivity. I know, I know. Everyone does. It’s a thing. But I like to put a positive spin on what’s happening. Not the edits I want? Well, at least I have the edits and can get them done. Stuff like that. I’m choosing to just be happy. We only get one life (so I’m told) so I’m making the best of it. 🙂